Today was a supremely peaceful happy day. I spent it with a friend who has an extraordinarily busy life. Until recently she spent a rare five minutes doing something for herself. Now her self-care has rocketed and she is a different person with more bubbliness and less worry. I too have changed and we managed to spend five hours going out for lunch in a place surrounded by flowers with no pressure to hurry up and eat so someone else could sit down.
It felt like a bubble in time, or should that be out of time? The real world did not and could not impact. Now that mine have finished their exams I am at the beginning of the longest summer holidays for quite a while, with something like 10 weeks before the alarm has to go back on. Normally it takes the best part of the summer holidays for me to fully adjust to a different timescale but this now gives me greater opportunity to follow the rhythm I want to follow. I probably do just as much work when I’m at home, just at different times and in different ways. There are more excursions and breaks from routine and it is always a pleasure to go out in the evening and not have to worry about getting enough sleep for the next day.
Freeing myself from the shackles of routine gives me space to feel my way into who I really am and how I want to spend the day.