I am the youngest of three girls.
Due to the age gap I grew up as an only child.
I grew up with contrasts.
I grew up with a north/south divide in my parents’ personality.
My father buries his emotions. My mother cannot deal with big problems but was warm and cuddly.
We moved around a lot so permanence was a rarity.
I never knew my grandfathers but my grandmothers were anchors.
When I was very young I was scared to be upstairs on my own.
I am pleased with the cultural enrichment and awareness that comes from living in lots of places. I wish it could have been an easier lesson.
I hated being dragged on family walks. I learned to walk quickly.
I was scared to disobey my parents.
I lived inside my head a lot.
I read to escape the real world.
I don’t belong anywhere.
I belong everywhere.
Astrology is rubbish but I am a typical Gemini.
My parents split the family in half (Gemini and Yorkshire, or Kent and whenever).
Perfection was the minimum standard. All else was failure.
I was never good enough.
I wondered if I was wanted.
I’m a suppressed extrovert who is trying to act less introverted. I think.
I was bullied at school for several years.
I was not an easy child. I’m not an easy adult.
I believe in people.
I watched my sister have fits on the kitchen floor.
I watched my other sister throw plates in temper tantrums.
I watched my parents’ responses to both.
I get sick in cars. My father didn’t believe me.
I cried a lot. I held back my tears a lot.
I’ve met some fantastic people along the way.
I don’t fit in.
I’m an oddball, bloody minded and have learned to be proud to be different.
I wish life were easier.
Written in response to “How would you describe yourself in terms of your origins an background?” for application for next level counselling. 50 words.